A lot on my Mind

I know this is my 3rd post today but I just have to get this off my mind... I was watching a movie tonight called "The Help" it is a wonderful movie if you have not seen it yet I am sorry but what I am about to talk about is going to spoil the movie a little bit for you...

There is a part in the movie where one of the wives has suffered a miscarriage and she has suffered several in silence she does not tell her husband about them. She just gets through it the best she can and plants a rose bush for each of her babies....

Now my husband was watching this movie with me in the bed and when it got to that part I had already said good night and turned over cause I have seen the movie before, he has not... He watches the part and just lays down and says nothing about it...

Now this pisses me off to NO END!!! Why won't he acknowledge the fact!!! I know it is a movie but the women is so hurt by this and by feeling unworthy for not giving her husband a child and yet my husband who has seen me go through this 3 times myself says nothing... I feel like I should have never told him... If I was going to have to suffer through this alone and in silence then I feel as if no one should have known about the babies at all... But he did and still NOTHING.... 

I just wish he would understand the hurt I feel when he doesn't acknowledge what I have been through.... I try to be a strong woman, I try to hide my feelings, I try so hard to please everyone, and do what everyone expects me to do BUT I AM SICK AND TRIED OF IT!!! I am sick and tired of thinking of EVERYONE ELSE!!! 

Especially when it feels as if No ONE thinks of me............