Been Gone

I have been gone from my blog for a while I have been busy with getting our new house together. We have moved and have gotten just about everything where we need it to be. I am currently on vacation and yesterday I wrote Carley's name in the sand and my cousins wife asked me do I constantly think of Carley and my babies and my answer is yes, she also asked me if it bothered me to talk about my babies or do I wish for her to not bring them up and I told her I like talking about them but most people feel uncomfortable talking to me about them.

I am just like all mothers you like to talk about your children. You like to say what they are doing and then things they can and can not due well I like to talk about if my children would be walking, talking, what they would look like and if they would act more like me or my husband. I can't help but think of her and my babies every day cause unlike most mothers I don't have my children here to look at, touch, kiss, hold and I know one day I will get to do all those things but I wished that I could do them now.

I wished I could be a Mommy!!!!