Thursday, January 20, 2011

14 Months

It is hard to believe that you have been gone for that long. I still miss you so much and I know that you are in Heaven and are okay but I still can't help but wish that you were here with me. You were my last chance at having a child but I know that even though you are not here with me on Earth I am still your Mom and I will see you one day.

I miss my other babies too I guess I talk about you more because of that reason I had put all my hopes and dreams into you, and I just knew that God was going to give me a chance at being a parent. That I was going to get to bring a baby into the world that was ours, but I was wrong. He thought you were too special to be here on Earth with us, you needed to go straight to him.

I am doing better but some days are better than others. Some days the pain isn't as bad in my heart for you, but I am scared that people are going to forget that you existed and I don't want that to happen. I will do my best to keep your memory alive.

I will never forget you and I will Always Love You!!!!


Holly said...

((hugs)) to you Jan