I think I am going to stop writing on here. I know that there is really nobody reading anything I put on here. I know that it helps me with my thoughts but I don't have people commenting back so I don't know if my thoughts are good, bad, should be different or if others even care...
I just need feed back even if it is good or bad. I wish someone could tell me if I am only in the ways I feel or not....
I was watching TV tonight and I saw a lady who got a piece of jewelry made for her child who passed away at birth and it was beautiful.... I have my necklace but I want something that is from me and for my children. I found this beautiful ring that I wanted but hubby said no grant it is would cost $800 so I completely understand... But it was gorgeous it had diamonds and then you could put each one of your children's birthstone in the spaces between the diamonds... Now if I got the cubic z stones it was $475 which would be fine with me... but maybe one day I will find that piece of jewelry that I can't live without for my children....
I often think of ways that I could do things to remember my babies... I feel each day that passes I am slipping farther from them... I want a tattoo but hubby says no on that too... I just need to have something that is on me at all times that is for everyone to see about my babies... I think since I don't have a place to morn for them that I could at least have something on my body that would show the world they were here they were real, they did exist....
But I think I will just stop with all the writing cause it doesn't do any good to just write and no one care....
My Angels in Heaven I love you so much and I wish every day that you were here with me and I am sorry that Mommy couldn't bring you into the world... I wish with every breath I take that you were here.....
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People are reading and do care!!!
I'm so sorry for your losses. I am a blog friend of Holly Haas & I have clicked on your blog from her list. I don't think people aren't reading, I think some may be like me, often in a hurry to get through & don't take the time to comment. Our 1st child passed away & I have a blog for her. If you would like some memory tags for your babies, please email me. you are also welcome to read my blog, which I have sorely neglected as of late. (((HUGS)))
Sarita Boyette
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http://ourperfectrose.blogspot.com
I don't get on to read as often, but I'm still here, and I do care. I just read a bunch of your posts, and, yes, a lot of what you've shared is normal. The first time I held a baby after losing my first, I cried. I still get a twinge of jealousy when I see pregnant women. There are days when the missing is so intense it's overwhelming. I still cry. I have friends who don't ask or talk about my heaven babies. I like sharing them, too, and I can't wait until my family is complete in heaven. I hope you continue to write and pray your husband understands you more. And I've also asked God to take away my desire for more (living) children at some point. Sending you virtual hugs.
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